My brother has a Mojo Jojo tramp stamp

And I still find it funny whenever I say it outloud. Hahahaha.

I'm thinking of moving to a new blog soon. Multiply is slowly becoming a desert like Friendster. I looking at other possible sites for a new blog. Maybe... just maybe, I should revisit my abandoned LJ. It has only two entries and 1 friend. Oh lookie! It has two friends now. Or I could also also create a new account and not abandon it this time. I'll think about.

Manong has a Mojo Jojo tramp stamp! I love it!

I suddenly felt a pinch of sorrow in my heart

I do not know where it came from. But it felt like having your heart broken. Perhaps I have been missing a lot of people lately. Or maybe because I have been longing for something that I know I will not have in the immediate future.

I mostly contented in the past few days. I haven't been sad or close to that.

Weird. Somehow, it reminded me of all the heartbreak I've had.

Ang misyon ko sa buhay ay ipagtanggol ang sangkatauhan mula sa mga mumu

Kagabi...

Sarah: te chab!
Sarah: where have you been?!
Sarah: aber aber aber. hehe.
isab: Sorry di kita nasagot kagabi.
isab: naglalaro ako ng Plants vs. Zombies
isab: hahahaha
Sarah: wow.
Sarah: understandable. hahahaha.
isab: Hahaha
isab: di ba napakaproductive ko
Sarah: haha. you're never really productive unless nakapagtanim at nakaharvest ka na sa farmville.
isab: sorry hindi ko nilalaro yun
isab: ang misyon ko kasi sa buhay ay protektahan ang sangkatauhan mula sa mga mumu
Sarah: ako man
Sarah: hahahahahahahahahaha
isab: hahahaha
Sarah: you're very righteous
isab: indeed
Sarah: hahaha

Kung kaya't hindi ako magsasaka. Isa akong mandirigma laban sa mga mumu at bakulaw.

Random List(s) - - - Really Random

I haven't been writing much here. I'm either too tired or I just can't put into words what I really want to say. There were a lot of times when I would be staring on this blank space, attempting to fill it with sense.

So I have decided to updated this with some random list of events, plans and other things that I can think of.

• Today I snapped at my favorite kids, I sort of raised my voice because I found them irritating playing in Mama's room. I feel guilty. I wasn't asleep or watching TV. I was just playing Plants vs. Zombies. Stupid of me to do that.
• The other day I drew aliens on my face for Jack and the Beanstalk. They were really cute. For today's show, I drew Christmas Elves as part of our Christmas theme. They were cute too.
• Two weeks ago, Sarah and I were sitting in a field in UP. While we were watching the sunset, an old couple got of their car beside it. After awhile, there were in each others arms, laughing. We were gushing at how in love they were with each other.
• I have told friends that men seem to disappear in my life. Looking back, maybe it's me that disappeared from them.
• If the greatest risk of 2009 pushes through, I am planning to cut my hair really short.
• I'm excited for Christmas but somehow I am not in the mood to give gifts this year.
  
• I have a new phone, I named her Chedeng. Tsinelas, my MP3 player, has retired.
• I want to swim.
• I am a bit disappointed with some people in my life. Yun lang.

Some day, I'll be great again.

Dr. Seuss

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go." ~Dr. Seuss

Salamat Sarah! Salamat Dr. Seuss!

Today I went to the museum with my Mama

I've always wanted to visit the National Museum. I love museums. I'm sort of a history buff who forgets a lot of dates. But really, one of my strongest arts subjects was World Theater History. I enjoyed learning the roots of theater.

Sadly my Arts Appreciation class in college was miserable. The professor we had was cocky, irritating and moody. Oh, and he hated our class because I had really noisy classmates.


I am really thankful that I have this long break. I am able to deal with my personal issues and do things that I have always wanted to do. I did say that I somehow lost myself amidst the chaos and the stress that had happen for the past months. I thought of going out of town but I have decided to pick the pieces up here in the city.

Naks. Moving on.

I've always wanted to take John Silva's National Museum Tour ever since Jk mentioned it in one of our late night dinners in his house. My irregular schedule did not permit me to take one of the summer tours. So when I saw the schedule for late October and November, I promised myself that I will take that tour. At first, I was planning to take the tour alone then I realized that there's a schedule on Mama's birthday, so why not ask her join me on her birthday.

On the eve of her birthday I promised myself that I'll sleep early. I failed on that because I had a True Blood marathon that ended at around 4:30am. Good job Isabelle!

Instead of waking up at 8am, I woke up 45 minutes. Mama and I faced the rain, determined to go to National Museum. We got there just in time and met John Silva. Then we found out that we're the only people whom he will be giving a tour today. So yey!! Very intimate tour!

I really learned a lot today. I learned a lot of things that I wouldn't have known I just went in there strolled on my own. I also relearned my elementary history. My mother on the other hand surely enjoyed the tour. Every time we entered a new gallery, I would her gasp. Of course, the sight of old jars, ceramics, altar pieces blew her away. We both like old things, old houses, old pictures, old cars and etc.

The last time I saw the Spolarium by Juan Luna was back in elementary. I remember being amazed by it as kid that when I got home from a field trip, I told my father about the Spolarium like I am an expert. Today, I saw it again. Amazed as ever, the kid in me wanted to jump in excitement of seeing it again. I am lucky of seeing it again, because this time I had a different perspective, I felt more for the lone woman who grieves in the painting.

This tour reminded me of why I am into the arts in the first place. It also reminded me how colorful our histoy is and why I am proud to be part of it. I am lucky that I brought my mama with me. She was so happy with the trip that during her birthday dinner, she told everyone what she saw and the little facts that John Silva shared with us.

I really recommend that you take this tour. Really. Take it! Do it NOW! Well, not now. :) Check the picture for the schedule.

I can almost see the light

For the past few weeks, I have been in an awful black hole that tried to eat me alive especially when I'm alone.

And I like being alone. I like riding the jeep alone, taking the train alone and walking alone. It did suck that this black hole tried to take away from me something that I really like.

I am physically not tired anymore, that's step two. Step one was acceptance. Final step is about to begin, sorting out the source of this episode. Once I'm done with that, I'd be able to get out of this rut. I'd be back to my happy self again.

Dear Mother Earth, I am very sorry.

A piece of candy wrapper that I didn't dispose properly surely contributed to the mess that we now know as a national calamity. I am sorry.


I have been reading updates about the aftermath for more than an hour. Ngayon lang pumasok sa kokote ko kung gaano katindi ang nangyari. Ngayong may mga kakilala akong nasalanta mismo ng bagyo at baha.

Tama na sa negative vibes. Kung lahat ng negative vibes sa Pilipinas ay maging positive, isipin niyo na lang kung gaano kasaya at ganado ang lahat ng tao sa pagtulong.


The Bare Necessities Drive

Peter Paul & Mary - Puff the Magic Dragon

I don't like wearing pants and Puff the Magic Dragon

I haven't worn a pair of pants for weeks already. I'd rather wear shorts or dresses or skirts. I like the cool feeling around my legs when they're all exposed. I don't care if I have marks on my legs.

Besides, I'm afraid I might not fit in my tight pants. Arrr. Hahaha.

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Mama told me the other day that Mary of Peter, Paul and Mary is dead. Their music completes my childhood memories along with listening to Shirley Bassey while in the car with my father and hearing Eraserheads for the first time in our stereo.

One of my favorite songs by that group is Puff the Magic Dragon.

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Little Jackie Paper loved that rascal puff,
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff. oh

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.

Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on puffs gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow wheneer they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flag when puff roared out his name. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, Jackie Paper came no more
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar.

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave,
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.


I was a loner as a kid. I played a lot on my own, having my own stories, aliases and the works. I would dress up complete with shoes and accessories. I'd make intricate stories about my character of the moment. She'd have a lover, a great career and a beautiful handwriting. She would solve mysteries, ride bike to work and have complicated family stories.

I miss that part of my life.

Trial and Error

Life has been like a long experiment. I try something and if it doesn't suit me, I make a mental note that that does not work and move on to the next adventure. This year has been full of surprises and I'm sure 2009 will have more for me.

I've tried a lot this year. I'll make a list once the year ends.


My life is starting to have structure. Aside from knowing what I don't want to do, I now know what I want to do. It's something that I have been rambling for the past two years. I'm taking little steps to get what I want. I'm trying to sort out my priorities especially with my moohlah. Although sometimes, I can't help splurging on myself like SHOES! and FOOD!

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I was heading home from the rehearsal of Anna's opera, I'm her Production Manager, then on my way out of College of Music, there was fog everywhere. At first I thought my eyes have gone really bad, but the students at the entrance were talking about it and that's when I realized that there really was fog.

I didn't mind the cold while waiting for a jeep in my shorts and thin jacket get-up. Good thing I brought my scarf, I just don't want to lose my voice with the four shows this weekend. The jeepney ride wasn't eventful but somehow I felt giddy. Christmas season. I haven't been this excited about Christmas for a long time. It's not December yet but I am really excited to see christmas lights and wearing sweaters to fight the cold.

I am in a good place right now. I like where the universe has put me. I'm excited for the surprises it has for me for the rest of the year. I like this feeling, I don't feel lonely or useless.

Thank you '09. All's mine, indeed.

Someday I Will Have Concrete Plan

In the meantime, I shall ride ferry boats on Pasig River, walk on the walls of Intramuros, dance like there's no tomorrow in Penguin, talk of lavish plans with my friends, be a North-South resident (QC-Pasay!), perform for hundreds of people and cherish this chapter of my life.

And this is how I roll in awesomeness.

Mystery Kid... He Might Be My Stalker

After the show, we go out again for photo ops, me in my full alien regalla complete with sweating colored face.  Suddenly, there's this kid, probably around 8 or 9 years old, who comes up to me and says " Hi! I missed you!" And then he gives me a quick hug.

Who is this kid? I HAVE NO IDEA!

I look at him confused, and here he was staring at me like he really knows me. I ask "Who are you?"

"I'm fine. I missed you. Bye!" he answers.

Then a lady called him "Timmy". He goes to his mom then goes to Ren and asks him about something. I ask Ren if knows the kid, he said no. I tried to remember if he was my student last summer. But no!

So yeah. Who the hell was that???

I've Learned

I've Learned - By Omer B. Washington

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you'll see them.

I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned.


Thanks Alyx for sharing this.

Next

Despite all stress and the technical disasters, the time traveling hosting was a success.

But the 3am Dimsum moments with Jk, Santi and Sarah was my favorite, except for the part where they forgot to give me the instructions on when to turn going to Tomas Morato. It took us more than half an hour to get to Morato from Greenhills.

And now off to the next adventure.

Too Many Things in My Mind

I guess I was overwhelmed with the adrenaline rush that I have forgotten that there are a lot of things that I need to deal with. I do not know how I'd be able to survive this wave chaos in my mind. But I know I will.

I started dispersing these thoughts that are disturbing me by talking to different friends on different issues. It's like assigning my problems to my friends.

I guess I should have dealt with these early on. I kept saying to myself that it's not yet the right time, I still don't have the answer. But now, they're slowly morphing into monsters that haunt me even in my happiest moments. I cannot focus. I cannot concentrate. They feed on my endorphins.

I know I'd be able to conquer them and crush them like they never existed.

Life can be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

May nagtanong sa akin kung hindi ba ako maghahanap ng totoong trabaho

Ang sabi ko "Hindi ba ito totoong trabaho? Pumapasok ako at binabayaran. Alam kong totoo ang lahat ng ginagawa ko."

Nang ikwento ko ito kay Jk, sabi niya "Oo nga naman, totoong trabaho ang ginagawa natin."

I may not have a regular job nor receive a 13th month pay at the end of the year, but I have accepted that I am not unemployed. I refuse to call myself a bum, I have been very productive.

Freelancer ako. Amen.

Kamalas-malasan nga naman, oo.

I was sick (again) this week and I was stuck home. It was okay to watch TV. But after awhile I got tired of it. Cable channels have repeating the Michael Jackson Memorial. I already memorized what Paris said at the end of the tribute.

How about internet, you ask. NO INTERNET! NO LANDLINE! PLDT had fiber optic chorva problems that need major repairs. The whole Libertad had no internet since Monday. I couldn't get any work done even as simple as sending emails. I'm currently abusing the Krispy Kreme internet. May donut ka na, may internet ka pa!

The cats played with my meds. I left it on the dining table last night and then my brother saw it on the floor around 3am. When I went down for breakfast, four capsules were missing and the rest had scratches on it, one was half open. We're afraid that they might have swallowed it or something.

Three weeks ago, a guy was jacking off in the jeep that I was riding. And he was sitting right in front of me. The driver didn't notice but I sure did. It was horrible and disgusting and creepy. Ask me personally about this story, I'll give you the horrible details.

Some friends weren't able to watch my closing show in Labfest, they weren't able to get tickets. Ang nakakainis lang, ang dami pang bakante sa loob ng theater. Hay.


Oh well. I don't want to end this on a negative note. A lot of good things have happened. The Labfest cast party was soooo fun! Tapos nakalibre pa ako ng mango juice! Horay!

I finally saw Santi! Horay!

I'm recovering now. A few more rounds of anti-biotics and I'll be good. I can't get sick anymore. I have already filled my sickness qouta for this year. Plus I can't afford it. Hahaha.

Ayun lang. Yung ibang bagay sa buhay ko, masaya naman. Nakakalito lang paminsan-minsan.

Kaya dapat galingan!

Avoiding another post-prod depression, thus I blabber about how crazy life will be after Sunday

After every production, there's the Post-Prod Depression. One would feel weird about having all the free time in the world after weeks of rehearsing everyday. Nostalgia will definitely be there pointing out the silly moments during rehearsals, laughing at playtime during shows and all those unexpected events that you wished never happen but still happened.

I don't think I'll be feeling that after Labfest. My life after Labfest consists of juggling rehearsals, mini rakets, Sipat Lawin work and researching for the JK-Isab project.

I do thank my parents for not pressuring me to find a "real" job or a regular job with regular hours and regular pay. Still, I feel the pressure from my college peers who often update their facebook status with "nkAkApAg0d w0rK".

I am not complaining. Hell, I don't mind if I don't get rich soon. But everything feels good at the moment. I might have my sudden rants on being tired and poor but nothing beats the excitement of waking up everyday and being able to do what you truly enjoy.

I still don't know how long I'd be able to keep up with this. I'm still enjoying the ride.

In the meantime, I savor extra moments I get to spend with friends talking like we haven't seen each other for weeks. Parang hindi kami nagkikita na sa totoo ay halos araw-araw kami nagkikita at nagkakamustahan. Hehehe.

Oh life! Oh reality! Oh happiness!

Topless Robot - Bonus! Rob's Transformers 2 F.A.Q.s!

http://www.toplessrobot.com/2009/06/bonus_robs_transformers_2_faqs.php?page=1#
Ahhh... Now I understand everything. Or not.

Virgin Labfest 5

http://www.culturalcenter.gov.ph/event.php?event_id=140
You can download the summary and schedule for Virgin Labfest 5 here.

VIRGIN LABFEST V -New Schedule

I deleted my entry containing the Labfest Schedule. Apparently, there have been changes on the schedule of the Stage Readings. So here it is.

VIRGIN LABFEST V

MAIN SELECTION

SET A - School of Life (Mga Dulang Walang Pinag-aralan)
June 23: 3pm, 8pm
July 4: 8pm
July 5: 3pm
 
MPC
by Job Pagsibigan, to be mounted by Sipat Lawin Ensemble

Humdrum pupil Felix Bakat is already the brightest student in the sub-standard Mababang Paaralan ng Caniogan or MPC. He and his two other friends, Erwin & Didai, had the misfortune of being the only three students to report to their class one stormy school day. Their teacher, the terrifying Miss Magnaye, prepares them for her teaching demo which she and her students are scheduled to present before their visiting school superintendent, Mr. Catacutan. On the day of the teaching demo, Erwin & Didai plan to steal from Miss Magnaye’s stock of canned goods; a business the teacher keeps to augment what she earn from the profession she herself despises. But just when Mr. Catacutan is already enjoying the teaching demo, Erwin and Didai are found out. Miss Magnaye points to Felix as the one behind the conspiracy. How the children are eventually cleared of the mischief is no small help from the school’s legendary ghost, Pilita and the violent storm that ties Pilita’s fate to that of Miss Magnaye.

Ang Huling Lektyur ni Misis Reyes
by Tim Dacanay, directed by Hazel Gutierrez

A high school music teacher at the crossroads of life decides to retire. She faces her class for one last session and improvises a lecture on a topic she considers most important for her audience: sex.

Isang Mukha ng Pandaraya
by Oggie Arcenas, directed by Roli Inocencio

Isadora, a student who is about to graduate summa cum laude from a prestigious university is accused of cheating during an examination. The accuser is Amor, an underachieving student, and the campus slut. The two face-off before the Student Disciplinary Tribunal which is hearing the cheating case. As the hearing unfolds, secrets are revealed, and a jaded society’s value system takes the spotlight.

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SET B - It's Complicated (The Buhul-Buhol Trilogy)
June 24: 3pm, 8pm
July 3: 8pm
July 4: 3pm
 
Salise
by J. Dennis Teodosio, directed by Roobak Valle

A laptop was stolen. In a desperate attempt to retrieve it, a soap opera writer discovers a life story that's stranger and juicier than the teleseryes he's been writing.

Ang Mamanugangin ni Rez
by Clarissa Estuar, directed by Paolo O'Hara

Enter Pinay’s world, which for most of the day is compressed into a small bag/shoe repair stall she manages at a mall. Here, even simple dreams seem out of reach, and simple Pinay constantly just fades into the background. She makes one last ditch effort for something she truly wants, or rather someone she truly wants only to question why she set her aspirations on that one man, of all people.

So Sangibo A Ranon Na Piyatay O Satiman A Tadman
by Rogelio Braga directed by Riki Benedicto

Braga, Written by a Filipino playwright as an ars poetica to a Bangsa Moro freedom fighter Abdul Rahman Macaapar is a story of love, lost and remembrance. Stella, a hooker from the university belt during the Martial Law years remembers the 1971 Tacub Massacre in Kauswagan, Lanao del Norte, Abdul Rahman who longs for a Ranao he left to pursue a dream in Manila, and Aling Ella a spinster who remembers a lost love that haunts her like a ghost. So Sanggibo a Ranon na Piyatay o Satiman a
Tadman is both a story of how ordinary people struggle for love, self-respect,freedom and maratabat amid a nation that harbors a dark past and an invitation to a journey in one of the sordid histories of Filipino Nationalism against the Bangsa Moro people.
 
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SET C - Blood Sports (Trilohiyang Dinuguan)
June 25: 3pm, 8pm
July 3, 3pm
July 5: 8pm
 
Kitchen Medea
by Kiyokazu Yamamoto directed by Yoshida Toshihisa

Doc Resurrecion: Gagamutin ang Bayan
by Layeta Bucoy, directed by Tuxqs Rutaquio

With the desire to introduce positive changes to his community, Doc Resureccion ran for Mayor. Unfortunately, his cousin, Boy Pogi Resureccion ran as a nuisance candidate challenging Doc Resureccion's chances. Bearing gifts and promises of a better future, he tries persuading his cousin to withdraw his candidacy only to find out that the community he so wanted to help desires a different path for itself.

Asawa/Kabit
by George de Jesus III, directed by George de Jesus III

Two middle-aged women Via and Vanessa confront each other about the man, they both loved for more than 25 years. Through a scathing conversation, resentments and regrets surface like land mines forcing both women to evaluate the immutable choices they made in the name of love, the unbearable burden of hope, and the contentiousness of believing in a man's fidelity.

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SET D - The Family That _______s Together (Tatlong Dulang Walang Diyos)
June 26: 3pm, 8pm
June 30: 3pm
July 2: 8pm
 
Boy-Girl ang Gelpren ni Mommy
by Sheilfa Alojamiento, directed by Carlo Pacolor Garcia

Two kids, caught in adult infidelity games, took time off away from their errant father's house and spend a vacation one summer in their divorced mother's place in another city and get to know her and her girlfriend.

Maliw
by Reuel Molina Aguila, directed by Edna Vida

How does one close a chapter still to be written? Five years after the forced disappearance of her eldest daughter, a mother confronts this question. The play is set after her family celebrates her eldest daughter’s 30th birthday.

Cherry Pink and Apple Blossom White
by George Vail Kabristante, directed by Paul Santiago

This is a document of the times when club entertainers in Japan used to pick yen from the walls of clubs to be remitted to their families back home for saving or for squandering. It zeroes in on former entertainers husband and wife Jay-Ar and Leizl and their dream to go back to Japan which has become an impossibility, given that the Japanese government has absolutely made it difficult now for anyone to work there as club entertainer. Hinting at Chekovian absurdities & humor, the characters continue dreaming and role-playing to relive the good old days. In laughing at themselves and acting “up” and “out” the dark humors and their memorable past in Japan, these two characters find their plight less painful to bear.

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SET E - Life is a Trap (Three Plays in Search of Escape)
June 27: 3pm, 8pm
June 30: 8pm
July 1: 3pm
 
Isang Araw sa Peryahan
by Nicolas B. Pichay, directed by Chris Millado

Zaldy and Toni, two friends whose family members have been the victims of forced disappearances, amble along a jologs Peryahan. They grope in the dark shadow of a world weighed by uncertainties and fear. Engaged in the ritual of forgetting, the two friends' undefined relationship adds a nagging ambiguity in their lives making it difficult for them to define a future. Hope, for them can be a tricky sleight of hand; a slow and treacherous rickety ride to hell.

Paigan
by Liza Magtoto, directed by Sigrid Bernardo

Fagen ("Paigan"), an Afro-American soldier who deserted his camp to fight side-byside with the Filipino revolutionaries, is wanted by the Americans for the price of $600-- a hefty sum at the time. Desperate for money, Pedring captures Fagen and is set to behead him when Tacio, a former comrade, and the Filipina wife of the captive beseech him. The play explores a possible scenario posed by historical essays on the true-to-life story of the guerilla fighter who defected to our side during the Filipino-American War.

Hate Restaurants
by David Finnigan, directed by J. Victor Villareal

Hate Restaurants is a command. Hate restaurants. Hate them. This play follows the trials and tribulations of a small pancake restaurant during the biggest breakfast of the year. Head chef and restaurateur Louise is incapacitated after an unfortunate encounter with a giant rat, leaving waiters Louise and Billy and mild-mannered kitchen-hand Toby to handle a booking of 70 businessmen who are suspiciously picky in their requirements


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The Virgin Labfest 4 Revisited
June 28: 3pm, 8pm
July 1: 8pm
July 2: 3pm
 
 
Ang Kalungkutan ng mga Reyna
by Floy Quintos, directed by Floy Quintos

Megalomania is witnessed by Marcel, a hairdresser who accedes to the leader of the land’s Yolanda Cadiz. The empty, vacuous preoccupation with hair and beauty is after all the most important ingredient to governance The elegance of decadence all, governance. and its inevitable slide into self-destruction introduces one of the Labfest’s most endearing/terrifying characters.

Ang Bayot, Ang Meranao at ang Habal-Habal sa Isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng Lanao del Norte
By Rogelio Braga directed by Nick Olanka

An unusual rendezvous of two beautiful and sharp-tongue outspoken creatures living at the margins of our society. Take a peak on their engagement as they courageously travel— devoid of any inhibitions, political correctness, and social graces—that rough and ‘older than history’ roads of discrimination, hypocrisy,bigotry, social divides, corruption and unspoken violence to arrive in a decent friendship. Ang Bayot, ang Meranao, at ang Habal-Habal sa Isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng Lanao del Norte is a bitter yet funky peppered with a Radio Active Sago Project kick-ass take on the cruelties of our society that condones discrimination which is definitely not so cool.

Uuwi na ang Nanay kong si Darna
Job Pagsibingan’s adaptation of Uuwi na ang Nanay Kong si Darna by Edgar Samar, directed by Catherine Racsag
 
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STAGED READINGS
Bulwagang Amado Hernandez (Conference room)

June 25, 6pm
Kataksilan
Tim Dacanay’s adaptation of Harold Pinter's Betrayal, directed by himself

June 27, 6pm
Breakups and Breakdowns
by Joel Trinidad, directed by himself

June 30, 6pm
Dingdong! Death Is At The Door!
SPIT

July 2, 6pm
Noong Minsan May Nanungkulan sa San Lazaro
Joshua Lim So’s adaptation of Alfred Jarry's Ubu Roi
Directed by Dennis Marasigan

July 3, 6pm (Tanghalang Manuel Conde)
American Huangup
directed by Chris Millado

July 5, 6pm
Creative Writing Workshop showcase
Facilitator: Glenn Sevilla Mas


 
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BOOK LAUNCHING

VIRGIN LABFEST ANTHOLOGY
June 23, 6pm Little Theater
The anthology, which includes 15 plays from years 1-4 of the Virgin Labfest, will be launched on the opening day of the Virgin Labfest.

The following plays are included:
Year 1
Rite of Passage by Glenn Sevilla Mas
Geegee at Waterina by J. Dennis Teodosio

Year 2
Ang Unang Aswang by Rody Vera
The Palanca In My Mind by Job Pagsibigan
Tres Ataques de Corazon (The Angina Monologues) by Nicolas Pichay
Hubad by Liza Magtoto and Rody Vera

Year 3
Mga Obra ni Maestra by Njel de Mesa
Three Sisters: Isang Noh by Yoji Sakate
Teroristang Labandera by Debbie Ann Tan
Ellas Inosentes by Layeta Bucoy

Year 4
Pamantasang Hirang by Tim Dacanay
Dong-Ao by F. Sionil Jose
Masaganang Ekonomiya by Allan Lopez
Ang Bayot, Ang Meranao at ang Habal-Habal sa Isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng Lanao del Norte by Rogelio Braga
Ang Kalungkutan ng mga Reyna by Floy Quintos
 


Tickets to the Virgin Labfest are at P200 for main exhibition sets, P100 for the symposium and "Pay What You Can" for play readings. For more details, please contact Tanghalang Pilipino at 832-3661, or the CCP Box Office at 832-3704.

Catharsis

I felt stuck. I felt pretentious and mediocre.

It was very frustrating because I was keeping everything to myself. Yet, I was not aware that I had all these bottled up inside. It was like a flesh eating disease consuming me from the inside without me knowing but still affecting everything that I did. After some point, I wanted to talk to people how I was feeling but I did not want to be a burden to anyone knowing that they were feeling stressed with everything that was going on.

Then there came a time that I felt nothing right when I needed to feel everything. It scared me because I did not know what to do.

Until this morning, out of nowhere, I was able to release what I have been keeping inside me. All of my frustrations out in the open. I was allowed to cry until there were no more tears to cry. As I let my tired body release the toxic feeling that have been torturing me for the past month, I was comforted by some of my closest friends.

Finally, catharsis.


Sila na alam kong hindi ako iiwan kahit pagbalibaliktarin ang langit, lupa at impyerno. Sila na handang magbigay ng yakap kahit hindi hinihingi. Sila na tanggap ang lahat ng pagkakamali ko at lahat ng mali sa akin. Hindi man ako maligo ng isang linggo, sila ang unang magsasabi na mabaho ako pero mamahalin pa rin ako. Sila na mga alibi ko kung kailangan. Mag-iba man ako ng buhok, pananamit, ilong, trabaho at mangingibig, alam kong hindi nila ako iiwanan ng basta-basta.

Maliban na lang siguro kung sinulot ko yung jowa nila na inibig ng sobra sobra. Pero ibang kuwento na iyun.


Dahil magsasampung taon na tayong magkakakilala bukas (maliban kay Eisa na nung Prep ko pa nakilala). Hindi ba kay galing kung paano tayo pinagsama-sama sa isang bundok sampung taon ang nakalilipas?


Mahal ko kayo ng walang humpay.

Habang Minumura ng Tag-init ang Tag-ulan...

minumura ko naman ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Hindi puso ang masakit kundi ang ngipin ko. Ngayon ko lang ulit maranasan ang umiiyak habang tumatawa. Umiiyak ako sa sakit pero natatawa ako dahil para akong tanga nakaupo sa harap ng dentista umuungol na parang nanganganak. Ang nanay ko tuloy, napapasok sa lakas ng ungol ko. Kaya noong mabunot yung ngipin, ang sabi ng dentista "Mommy, lola na kayo, lalaki!" Bwiset di ba! Pero natawa na lang ako. Siguro nahiya rin ako sa dentista na umiiyak ako sa sakit kaya ako natawa.

Ngayon, masakit ang tinahi. Lalong masakit noong hinihila yung ngipin. Pinangalanan ko na siyang Impakta. At pinauwi pa sa akin ng dentista para remembrance daw. Ang sweet di ba!


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At ngayon heto na. Natapos na naman ang isang produksyon. May isang linggo ang akong pahinga bago magsimula na naman ang isa pa. Talagang gusto kong magkaroon ng perfect attendance sa VLF.

Naalala ko noong tinawagan ko ni Herbie para sumali sa unang labfest. Ang sabi niya lang sa akin "I have this small role for you". At gusto niya ako kunin dahil nakapagsasalita ako ng Ilonggo. Hindi niya naman sinabi na may kama sutra pala yung role na ibibigay niya sa akin. Ang saya. Naloka ako. Pero mas naloka ang nanay ko at kuya ko nuong mapanuod nila. Wala pang bayad ng mga tao noon sa labfest. Biskwit at kape lang ang meron kami. Pero masaya. Lalong masaya nuong na re-stage kami at nanuod ang tatay ko. Inabangan ng lahat kung ano ang magiging reaksyon niya. Proud si Papa. Kinongrats ako pati si Kuya Noel. Panalo yun!

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Ang dami kong gustong sabihin. Ang dami kong gustong pasalamatan. Pero parang hindi maayos ang pag-iisip ko ngayon para isulat ang lahat. Siguro dahil umiikot pa ang utak ko sa pain killer na ininom ko para sa ngipin ko.

Kaya heto na lang.

Napagod ako ng sobra. Napuyat at nasubok ang aking pasensiya. Pero masaya ako. Masayang masaya sa takbo ng buhay ko. Alam kong ilang beses ko na itong nasabi. Masarap kasing sabihin.

WATCH WO(E)MEN

"Dalawang babaeng gurong akusadong nag-iibigan"

"Dalawang lalakeng presong nagtalik sa salita"WO(E)MEN

It is 1934. In an all girls’ boarding school, a rumour spreads like a plague about two headmistresses having a lesbian affair. Meanwhile in Berlin, in a struggle to keep themselves sane, male homosexuals make love through words in a concentration camp under the watchful eye of the Nazis.

The woe of men, the woe of women, the woe of mankind. This summer, with two plays set in 1934, the Sipat Lawin Ensemble looks back on age-old taboos and examines the woe of men and women as they struggle in the midst of our sexually challenged and sexually changing world.
Acclaimed director, actor and production designer Tuxqs Rutaquio leads the theatre alumni of the Philippine High School for the Arts in breathing life to Joel Saracho’s Kwentong Bata (an adaptation of Lillian Hellman’s Children’s Hour) and Martin Sherman’s Lihis (Emmanuel Canteras’ translation of Bent).

Children’s Hour was adapted to film in 1961 by William Wyler starring Audrey Hepburn, Shirley MacLaine and James Garner, while Bent was filmed in 1997 by Sean Matthias starring Mick Jagger, Ian McKellen and Jude Law.


Show dates:
KUWENTONG BATA (Children's Hour):
3pm - May 20, 23
8pm - May 20, 21, 23

LIHIS (Bent):
3pm - May 21, 22

Tickets at P200

Contact me (Isab/Isabelle) at 09183092268 to reserve your tickets.

Nuod ka na.

With Wisdom Comes Pain

And it hurts a lot. My face is literally uneven as my right jaw is screaming in pain. The last of my wisdom teeth is impacted. Impakta talaga! And the doctor cannot do anything about it until it's not swollen anymore. I was given medication for the pain and the swelling.

The thing is, I cannot schedule an operation as soon as possible as I still have an upcoming show. I was told that recovery would take 3 to 7 days. And I don't want to risk my performance.

Hay buhay nga naman!

I was suppose to have this removed last December but then my schedule did not permit me to do so. Plus the pain went away and I thought it was not that serious. Tanga Isab! Tanga!

It hurts a lot. Nakisabay pa ang cramps. Oh ovaries! Oh natural phenomena of female species from the age of puberty and beyond!

I actually felt guilty staying home the whole day trying to sleep off the pain. It is my first time to spend the day at home. Ugh. Unproductive. Not good at all.

But somehow sleeping in my Mama's bed is very comforting. I enjoyed being pampered by Mama. And none of my siblings were. Feeling only child ako! I especially enjoyed my dinner with both my parents who bought icecream because of my toothache. Hur hur hur.


I miss moments like this. Tomorrow, back to work!

Pasensiya Patience

Nakakatuwang isipin na ang salitang "pasensiya" ay may dalawang kahulugan, "patience" at "sorry". Dahil ba na kapag nauubusan ka ng pasensiya sa isang tao at bigla kang pumutok, sasabihin mo na lang na "pasensiya".

Noong nakaraang taon, nagugulat si Jk kapag bigla akong nagkukuwento kung paano ako naubusan ng pasensiya sa isang tao o kaganapan. Dahil para sa kanya, isa ako sa mga pinakamatindi ang pasensiya. Na totoo naman siguro.

Hindi ako napipikon agad. Kaya kong ngitian na lang ang mga problema. Bihira akong nagagalit. Bihira rin akong nakakaramdam ng galit. Mabilis din mawala ang galit ko. Kamakailan lang din naman ako natuto talagang magalit.

Ewan ko ba. Pero parang nitong mga nakaraang linggo, nararamdaman ko na mabilis akong nauubusan ng pasensiya. Nanahimik na lang ako o di kaya kinikimkim ang nararamdaman hanggang sa mayroon na akong pwedeng mapagkwentuhan. Ganun lang naman ako, kelangan ko lang ikwento ang sama ng loob ko at agad din naman nawawala ang lahat.

Pero ngayon, hindi ko alam kung kanino ko sasabihin ang mga kinikimkim ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilalabas ang inis na nararamdaman ko.

Somehow, patience is not my virtue again.

Siguro dahil nararamdaman ko na hindi ko masabi ang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. Gusto kong sabihin na parang hindi naman yata tama na ako lang ang dapat mag-adapt sa nangyayari. Alam ko naman na ginagawa ko ang dapat kong gawin. Pero parang ang nangyayari, tinatanggap ko na lang ang kung anomang naririnig ko at sasabihing "oo nga, mali ako". Kahit alam ko na minsan, kayabangan lang din naman ang umiiral sa iba.

Oh well, George Orwell. Kaya siguro ako nagkakaganito dahil pakiramdam ko ang dugyot-dugyot ko. Ang labo, wala naman talagang kinalaman yun sa pagkadugyot ko. Hahaha.

O dahil siguro masyado pa rin akong mabait para ipagsigawan talaga ang nararamdaman ko at ayokong makasakit ng iba.


Pasensiya na lang at nauubusan ako ng pasensiya.

Hi I'm Isab. I am a workaholic

I have never had a single day where I had nothing to do since I came back from Holy Week vacation. I am seriously missing watching TV without thinking of the many things that I have to do.

If I'm not rehearsing, I'm assisting in theater classes.

No regrets though.

All is good.

All is mine.

All is awesome.

 

I'm lucky to be surrounded by people who enjoy kidnapping me whenever they can.

Mga sampung beses na ata ako nagkaroon ng unofficial graduation party.

Pero magkakaroon pa ng official graduation party. Sigurado yun. Kung kelan, ibang usapan na yun. Hahahaha.

 

Yun lang. Bow.

The Mandatory Post-Graduation Post

I woke up at 7am this morning after having 4 hours of sleep. When the alarm went off, the first thing I said was "Today, I will graduate".

I did graduate today. After five years of college plus a year of not attending school, I have finally received my diploma. And it was a struggle. My college years was never focused on my academics. I could not even remember having a normal sembreak.

Wait. I never had a sembreak.


My classmates have known me as someone whose always busy with something. But I never really told them that I was mostly busy with theater-related endeavors. Lv was the one who told everyone the real reason why I would be absent. I'm not sure why I sort of kept this a secret. But I felt the need to separate my academic life from my other life. I would invite close friends when I have shows but I never did announce in a class that I'm currently doing <insert title of show here>.

Every time I would tell a professor I would be absent, my automatic reason would be "I have work". I won't say I have a show unless he/she would ask what my work is.

Pa-sekret sekret pa talaga.


Now that college is over, another crazy chapter of my life will begin. I am still confused with what I want to do and all. So far, life has been awesome. So awesome.

I was not a brilliant student when you look at my grades. I'm not a cum laude nor an honorable mention. I was not scholar or a consistent Dean's Lister. I never really studied hard. But I know that I learned a lot. I also know that my grades will never dictate the course of my life. I am definitely sure I will survive this crazy life.

Amen.


By the way, Cesar Montano is my batchmate. Hahahaha.

It's so hard to be driven if you have no direction

I have been meaning to write a meaningful post about being a graduate with no concrete plans and all. But the thing is, I haven't graduated yet (march, get the diploma, pictures with the family, pig out right after). Exams are over, thesis has been passed. I'll get my grades on Tuesday. Clearance will be signed after Holy Week. I march two weeks from now.

I have been postponing on updating this thing because of this thought that I might have a failed subject or something and then I won't be able to graduate after all. Scary. Really scary.

Plus I have been busy. Hahaha. What else is new. I am organizing a family friend's friend's debut for the 19th. Kind of preparing for a To Heat You Up show for the 13th. Rehearsing for a thesis production on the 17th. Planning another trip to Zambales this coming week. Wondering when I should get another perm.

Hindi naman ako workaholic. OO! WORKAHOLIC AKO!!!! Sinong tanga ang magsho-show ng 1pm at 7pm sa RCBC habang baccalaureate mass niya rin sa araw na iyun ng 4pm sa Intramuros??? AKO! AKO! AKO ANG TANGANG YUN!!! Kinabukasan nga pala graduation ko ng 9am, assuming na ga-graduate nga ako.

Whew!!

As I was saying, it's so hard to be driven when you have no direction. Now that graduation is around the corner, I have been having this dilemma of what I want to do in life. And I'm not someone who will settle for an "okay lang" type of job. I do love theater. I may have gotten burned out after high school but this time, I definitely sure that I love what I am doing and how it entangles my life. Still, I want something that is related to my degree. I also want something that can feed my need to organize anything that's not my table. My friends must be tired of listening about this dilemma of mine that at some point they have memorized it.

Most of my classmates are probably preparing their resumes and are looking for potential employers. How about me? Do not expect me to be sending out a business resume this year.

This summer will be the end of many beginnings and the beginning of many ends. I am determined to find what I want and enjoy the adventure of unemployment. Rakets will be my main source of income and as much as possible I won't be asking cash from the parentals.

I really want to move out soon but this whole bum episode of my life will make it impossible. But I'm still looking for possible residences in case I'd be financially stable soon.

I am not sure with everything. But I'm sure I'll be okay.

Makiling Survey -- from Facebook

Ilang beses na akong na-tag para gawin ito. Gagawin ko na talagang totoo. Medyo boring akong studyante noon. Medyo lang. Hahaha. Mabait pa kasi ako nung first 2 and a half years as compared to others. Hindi kasi ako umiinom o nagyoyosi. At grabe ang konsensiya ko noon kapag nagshortcut lang ako. Pero noon yun... ngayon hindi na. >:)

GE at Arts
[x] Di gumawa ng homework more than 5 times
[ ] Napalabas ng teacher from class
[x] Kumain sa loob ng classroom
[x] Di pumasok sa class dahil ayaw mo lang
[ ] Inuna ang siesta sa hapon at nalate ng todo sa arts class dahil nkatulog ng mahaba
[x] Natulog sa class -- May shifting pa kami ni Joy-anne sa class ni Mam Arboleda para may notes pa kami.
[ ] Na-late more than 7 times -- Ms. Punctuality ako, never ako na late sa GE
[ ] Na-suspend dahil sa excessive tardiness
[x] Pinagtri-tripan ang morning excercise sa road
[x] Gumawa ng assignment sa loob ng classroom, habang nandyan ang teacher
[x] Gumawa ng plate/ nag-ensayo para sa arts habang GE time
[x] Kumain sa loob ng library
[x] Nag-ingay sa loob ng library
[x] Napagalitan ng librarian
[x] Nakipaglaro sa anak ni Mam Mojica ng espadahan sa library
[x] Nagpanggap na magreresearch sa library pag recess when gusto lang magpa aircon
[x] Pumasok ng naka-sandals o tsinelas
[x] Nag-jacket para kunwari naka-white shirt sa loob
[x] Nasermonan ng teacher ang buong klase
[x] Nag-walkout ang teacher sa class niyo -- Maliban sa nag walk out si Mam Bazar, si Sir Estepa isang beses pumasok lang sa classroom, nagsulat ng lesson sabay walk out
[ ] Bumaba sa school area nang maaga para makapag-basketball/volleyb

all
[x] May bagyo, at nagdasal na sana may masirang puno sa road para humarang sa rosa
[x] Pumasok sa class ng di prepared (plate, scene study, etc.)
[x] Na-late sa Arts
[x] Napagalitan nang matindi ng teacher
[x] Sumugod ang buong batch para humingi ng sorry sa isang teacher.
[x] Bumibili ng pagkain sa admin area
[x] Naglakad mula school area, NAC Theater, Vargas Area pabalik ng dorm
[x] Nagvolunteer na itaas at/o ibaba ang watawat sa flag ceremony, flag retreat
[x] Hindi ka (as in kayong class/batch) pinapapasok ng isang teacher hanggang sa sabihin niya na "enter the dragon!"
[x] Ginamit na rason ng pagkakaroon ng thesis/recital para bigyan ng mas magaan na load, assignments, et al sa GE -- Kaya ang batch namin hindi nagcheerdance. Kami lang yun. Hahahaha.
[ ] Kunwari tutugtog ng national anthem, PHSA hymn at exercise theme para hindi matikman ang sinag ng araw
[x] kinakabahan sa chemistry class at sa index cards -- ng bonggang bongga
[x] gumawa ng short film/s para sa project sa GE subject
[x] namemorize ang ions at anions sa anumang paraan (kanta, tula at kung anu-anung codes)
[x] Nag- impromptu ng class presentation dahil di talaga nag prepare at all or sobra sobra ginagawa

SA PANGKALAHATAN
[x] Umakyat ng bubong
[x]Umakyat at nakabutas ang bubong
[ ] Nakipag-suntukan
[x] Nakipag-sigawan sa kaklase o roommate o kapwa
[ ] Kumuha ng pagkain/inumin sa ref nang di nagpapaalam sa may-ari
[x ]Nagkaroon ng inis with other batch
[x] Tumakas sa student's assembly at nanatili sa dorm
[x] Nasabihan ng house parent ng "ILAW NIYO!"
[x] Nanakot ng freshman (as in "multo" takot) -- Naman! Si Mara at si Angel. Siyempre yung mga first years namin.
[ ] Nagkaroon ng boyfriend/girlfriend na batchmate
[ ] Nagkaroon ng boyfriend/girlfriend (higher o lower batch) -- wala noong studyante pa ako. Bwahahaha,
[x] Nag-shortcut papuntang kabilang cottage
[x] Nag-shortcut papuntang kabilang dorm
[x] Nag-swimming sa pool na di alam ng houseparent
[ ] Lumabas sa PHSA na patakas
[ ] Naiwan ng Rosa/Big Bus dahil nasa computer shop pa -- Ms. Punctuality talaga ako. As in paranoid akong maiwan ng Rosa.
[x] Pumila ng dalawang beses o higit pa sa pagkain
[x] Nakitulog sa kwarto ng iba
[ ] Na-ban sa Dorm
[x] Pumunta sa ibang dorm na di naglo-login sa blue book
[x] Nanuod ng recital pero natulog lang o kaya nakipagchikahan lang --Kinabukasan sinabihan ako ni Botin "Isab, sinong kausap mo sa likod?"
[x] Umapaw ang utang sa cafeteria (dahil sa sandwich, milo, etc) -- Yung egg sandwich na yan pahamak!
[ ] Pumasok/Lumabas sa Rosa o Big Bus sa pamamagitan ng paglusot sa bintana
[x] Nag-vandalize sa upuan
[ ] Napagalitan ng teachers dahil sa sobrang vandalism
[ ] Nag-kiskis at naglinis ng upuan na vinandalize ng class.
[ ] Nahulihan ng alak sa dorm
[ ] Nahuli ng teacher/ houseparent na nagyo-yosi
[ ] Nanood ng movie gamit ng laptop at nagkaroon pa ng food trip pagkatapos nito
[ ] Nakipaglaplapan sa music area
[ ] Inisip na bipolar si kuya kiko
[x] Nagustuhan ang mga higanteng uod sa kalsada -- Amazing kasi sa laki!
[x] saksi sa mga uod sa daan tuwing umuulan
[ ] Under the influence of keme kapag may party
[ ] Nakapunta sa dampalit ng illegal
[x] Hinarana ka (ung raket ng mga music majors tuwing valentine's season) -- Hahahaha. May isa pang beses na may card and flowers na pinauwi ko sa nanay ko.
[ ] Naging SC member -- Muntikan lang. Pero naging Dorm Mayor ako.
[x] Pumunta ng Dampalit
[x] naglinis ng aquarium para sa mga isda ng biology class
[x] sumasalo ng falling leaf -- Sabay wish! Pakana ni Jk
[ ] nakakita ng mga milagrong ginagawa ng room mate kapag break o gabi
[ ] Nakapagswimming sa pool kahit may mga algae algae na ito
[ ] Nagkaroon ng lesbian/gay moments
[ ] Nanghuli ng cicada/antlion kapag break
[x] Nagnakaw ng hanger sa sampayan - Dahil lagi din akong nanakawan kahit ang laki ng pangalan ko sa pink na hanger
[ ] Nakasira ng kahit isa man dito na matatagpuan sa classroom gaya ng piano, lcd proj, lcd screen tv, vhs
[x]Nagkaroon ng matinding punishment from a teacher
[ ] Nakipag-inuman/ yosi ng lihim with classmates/ka-majors
[x] Nadedepress kapag paakyat o pababa na ng makiling

If I won't be able to have babies in the future,

I'm blaming the smart-ass who decided to have the whole compound defogged today.

Seriously!!!!

I woke-up this morning feeling great and all because I slept early last night. I was already in bed by 10pm and was in dreamland by 10:30. Now that's a miracle for me because I usually sleep at around 3am.

I went downstairs for breakfast and suddenly someone screams "Tiyay, magpapausok daw." A few seconds later, a fogging machine makes a noise and the whole back area of the house was covered with poison fog. I run upstairs to close all the windows then headed to the kitchen to close the remaining windows.

My mother was panicking because of all the clothes that were hanged outside to dry which I think should be washed all over again because they now smell like mosquito repellant.

Ang galing talaga ng kung sino mang bobo ang nag-isip na magpausok ngayon. Buti na lang gising na ako kung hindi naliligo pa siguro ako sa usok. Punyeta!

I'm also blaming that smart-ass if my lungs collapse or something.

And this is where I try to write something sensible...

who am I kidding. I am suppose to be finishing a paper or at least edit THE thesis. But noooooo! Here I am typing and typing hoping that some brilliant idea would spill out and make my fingers type.

I still feel tired but not as tired as the last time I said I was tired. I am extremely happy that I have survived February. It was not as great as I wanted it to be but seriously, what else would I ask for. I survived a month of juggling rehearsals for Heat You Up, directing a play for school, reviewing for the midterms and hosting the Diplomatic Dinner.

I was telling Jk that if I do survive February, I would be able to graduate. Hahahaha. I do not know why I keep on making these conditions when I would always say to myself that these things are only giving me false hope. Pero care ko! Ang labo.

Despite all the stress, I have to admit that I really had fun. And even though I almost crashed and burned, I am really lucky to be surrounded by people who keep my spirirts up.

I have decided to stop the hate that I have been feeling for awhile. Why should I sulk on this negative feeling when I have been given lots of happiness. Parang sinasabihan ako na "Hoy gaga! Wag ka na nga magbitter-bitteran diyan!". At hindi na, tinigilan ko na dahil marami namang binibigay sa aking kaligayahan.

Kung kaya't maliligo na lang ako sa kaligayahan.

Despite all the uncertainty about my future, I cannot wait for this chapter of my life to end. I cannot wait the continuation of the many beginnings that this year has unravelled for me.

I have been thinking of a catchy title for the past 20 minutes...

but my brain is half-dead. I cannot think of a witty catchphrase or even a funny CORNY joke. My stomach has been revolting for the whole week giving me false alarms with farts and burps.

I cannot remember the last time I have been this tired and I still have five days to end this week.

Actually, there have been lots of things, ideas and random chuwariwaps that I wanted to write. But I have been postponing it because I didn't want an entry upstaging my previous entry. Now, that all those stuff are gone and here I am ranting how tired I am. Thus, I upstage my previous entry.

I am tired. That's it. My mother is just waiting for me to collapse and take me to the doctor. I have been overdosing myself with ascorbic acid to prevent flu and the likes. I cannot remember the last time that I lied down on my bed not to sleep but to think of nothing, except the ceiling. I cannot think of a witty/funny/corny response to blog entries that I have read.

I have snapped on my friends, a lot. And I really feel bad about.

I snapped on Lv the other day for something that's done and can't be undone. I still feel guilty about it. I am thankful that she just let it slipped, asked me if I'm okay and asked me to join her in the library. I still feel bad that I left her right after we sat down.


Matapos lang talaga ang linggong ito at magdidiwang ako ng bonggang bongga.

Please watch!!!! BENT to HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN

SIPAT LAWIN ENSEMBLE's
1st Offering for its 2009 Season


LIHIS
Emmanuel Canteras' Filipino translation of Martin Sherman's BENT

and

TO HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN
by David Finnigan


featuring the Alumni of Dulaang Sipat Lawin
of the Philippine High School for the Arts (PHSA)

Acey Aguilar, JK Anicoche, Nar Cabico, Abner Delina
Santi Obcena, Lovely Balili, Sheenly Vee Gener, Isabelle Martinez, Meila Romero, Ness Roque, Nina Rumbines, Alison Segarra, Kristine Balmes, and Sofia CP Gonzales

Tickets at P150


Synopses:

BENT/ LIHIS

It is 1934 in Berlin. in accordance with Hitler's nationwide campaign to eliminate all homosexuals, Maximillian Berger and Rudolf Hennings are sent to a concentration camp. along the way, Rudy is brutally killed.

Max encounters Horst, a fellow homosexual, in a prisoner train. they fall in love but are forced to resort to extreme measures to ensure their own
survival as the Nazi's attempt to drive them insane.


TO HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN

Two women working in a bar and their thoughts coming to life: Memory, Lust, Adaptability, Imagination/ Desire and Planning/ Habit mechanism.

What do we really think about when a new relationship comes along?

While one struggles between letting go or falling in love again and going through the same cycle of pain, the other one contemplates on giving love a chance even if it means that the relationship is with the same sex.

All just to heat you up and cool you down.



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The Best Ever!!!!

I have a rule to not write here when drunk or feeling an intense emotion. Pero ayokong palagpasin ang pagkakataong ito habang lutang pa ako sa kaligayahan.

This is the best birthday ever! And it's not yet over!

For the past few years, I would always be afraid that something would go wrong during my birthday. But today, I feel so happy. Kahit medyo hilo-hilo na ako sa kalasingan, alam kong masaya ako ng sobra. Dahil alam kong ang araw na ito ay magiging espesyal kahit hindi ko pa alam kung anong nakalaan sa mga susunod na oras.

Sa araw na ito, sinalubong ko, kasama ng mga pinakamalalapit kong kaibigan ang aking kaarawan. Alam kong alanganin na nagyaya ako ng weekday, pero na isip ko na minsan lang ako maging 22 sa araw ng 22.

Ang saya! Sobra! Ngayon lang ako naiyak sa birthday ko. Naiyak na ako dati pero iyak ng lungkot iyun. Ngayon, naiyak ako sa saya. Kumusta naman ang kantahan ka ng "happy birthday" ng mga tao sa Penguin. Kumusta naman na ang mga kanta ay inalay sayo ng mga taong hindi ko kilala. Kumusta naman ang mga pagkanta ng pinakamamalapit na kaibigang songers dahil birthday mo.

I am super happy! Naluluha pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Hahahahaha.

Naalala ko yung nabasa ko sa magazine, yung sinabi si Zsazsa kay Karylle noong kakabreak lang nila ni Dingdong. "Think of the constants in your life." At tama siya, yoon ang pinakamahalaga. Ang mga taong hindi ka iiwan kahit anong mangyari. Ang mga taong mamahalin ka habang buhay pumayat ka man o tumaba, magakaroon ka ng disapproving na jowa o jowang mamahalin ng mga taong namamahal sayo. Ang taong sasamahan ka kahit gaano kasama na ng ginawa mo dahil nagpaka-pokpok ka na at lahat.

Salamat sa lahat ng mga nagmamahal. Aaminin ko noong mag-18 ako, ginusto ko rin ng mga kakornihan gaya ng pagsasayaw kasama ang tatay at ng mga malalapit na kaibigan. My 18th birthday celebration eventually became disastrous. But this night is totally making up for it.

Nakasayaw ko ang tatay ko at ang mga malalapit na kaibigan. At higit sa lahat ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagmamahal na pumapalibot sa akin. And to think I was planning not to celebrate this year. No regrets!

This year, I will take more risks. I will travel more just as I have always dream of. I will have my own pendong peace. I will love. I will hate. I will be angry. I will be sad. I will get everything I deserve. I don't even know what I deserve.

This will be my year.

For the annual current events-related wish: I wish for World peace, economic stabilty, sustainable development, abolishment of poverty and for the UN to accomplish its Milennium Goals.

Oh di ba, nakakadugo ang aking wishes.

Good times. Good company. Good year.

Kasalang Catamora at Boivin-Sicart

Matagal ko nang gustong sumulat kung gaano kasaya ang kasal nina Anna at Jeremy. Gusto ko sanang isulat ang lahat ng kaganapan, bawat oras kung kakayanin. Pero sa sobrang saya, hindi ko alam kung saan sisimulan.

Pero heto, susubukan ko na.

Sa pagpaplano ng kasal na iyun, masasabi naming kinarir namin ng bongga ang "production" na iyun. Hahaha. Halos gabi-gabi kaming nag-uusap ni Jk ng mga kailangan gawin para sa kasal na iyun. At aaminin ko, nuong pumasok ang 2009, hindi ko inisip ang birthday ko. Ang una kong inisip ay ikakasal na ang kaibigan namin.

Nakakawindang. Hahaha. Hindi man ako yumaman sa pagbuhos ng effort, alam ko naman na lubos naming napaligaya sina Jeremy at Anna. At higit sa lahat, lahat kami nag-enjoy kahit na maraming technical difficulties na nangyari.


Maraming drama ang sumapit sa aming magkakaibigan sa kalagitnaan ng pagpaplano. Sa totoo lang, isang bonggang drama lang. Yung iba, mga nakaraang bubog na pasulpot-sulpot para lang mang-asar at guluhin ang aming mga utak. Kaya itong pagpaplano ay parang naging therapy na rin sa mga sawi at feeling sawi.

Work can sometimes help you move on. Nagagawang isantabi ang mga damdamin para matapos ang trabaho at makamit ang mithiin.

Charot! Ang dadrama na naman nito.

At the end of the day, fabulosa pa rin.


Masayang masaya ang gabing iyun. Hindi sapat ang mga salita kung gaano ako kasaya. Iyun ay isang gabi na punong-puno ng pagmamahal at kaligayahan.

Para kay Anna,
Roommate! Unang roommate ko sa Makiling. Grabe, isang ganap na ginang ka na!!!

Para kay Jeremy,
Alagaan mo ng sobra si Anna. Baka ipatawag namin si Bruno. Hehehe.


Magtagal kayo habambuhay. Mahal ko kayo.

Bulaga and True Blood

Ang buhay nga naman, sa isang pitik lang bigla na lang may nagbabago. Yung mga akala mong walang nararamdaman ay biglang nagiging tao.

Nakakagulat lang ang mga bagay-bagay. Pero kailangan nating magpatuloy.

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I have been watching True Blood with Manong. It is really awesome. It's a vampire series by HBO. It is nothing like Twilight. It beats Edwards Cullen's glittered body.

It stars Anna Paquin and Stephen Moyer.

WARNING: Anna Paquin is oozing with hotness. And yeah, lots of sex scenes in EVERY episode.