Hi I'm Isab. I am a workaholic

I have never had a single day where I had nothing to do since I came back from Holy Week vacation. I am seriously missing watching TV without thinking of the many things that I have to do.

If I'm not rehearsing, I'm assisting in theater classes.

No regrets though.

All is good.

All is mine.

All is awesome.

 

I'm lucky to be surrounded by people who enjoy kidnapping me whenever they can.

Mga sampung beses na ata ako nagkaroon ng unofficial graduation party.

Pero magkakaroon pa ng official graduation party. Sigurado yun. Kung kelan, ibang usapan na yun. Hahahaha.

 

Yun lang. Bow.

The Mandatory Post-Graduation Post

I woke up at 7am this morning after having 4 hours of sleep. When the alarm went off, the first thing I said was "Today, I will graduate".

I did graduate today. After five years of college plus a year of not attending school, I have finally received my diploma. And it was a struggle. My college years was never focused on my academics. I could not even remember having a normal sembreak.

Wait. I never had a sembreak.


My classmates have known me as someone whose always busy with something. But I never really told them that I was mostly busy with theater-related endeavors. Lv was the one who told everyone the real reason why I would be absent. I'm not sure why I sort of kept this a secret. But I felt the need to separate my academic life from my other life. I would invite close friends when I have shows but I never did announce in a class that I'm currently doing <insert title of show here>.

Every time I would tell a professor I would be absent, my automatic reason would be "I have work". I won't say I have a show unless he/she would ask what my work is.

Pa-sekret sekret pa talaga.


Now that college is over, another crazy chapter of my life will begin. I am still confused with what I want to do and all. So far, life has been awesome. So awesome.

I was not a brilliant student when you look at my grades. I'm not a cum laude nor an honorable mention. I was not scholar or a consistent Dean's Lister. I never really studied hard. But I know that I learned a lot. I also know that my grades will never dictate the course of my life. I am definitely sure I will survive this crazy life.

Amen.


By the way, Cesar Montano is my batchmate. Hahahaha.

It's so hard to be driven if you have no direction

I have been meaning to write a meaningful post about being a graduate with no concrete plans and all. But the thing is, I haven't graduated yet (march, get the diploma, pictures with the family, pig out right after). Exams are over, thesis has been passed. I'll get my grades on Tuesday. Clearance will be signed after Holy Week. I march two weeks from now.

I have been postponing on updating this thing because of this thought that I might have a failed subject or something and then I won't be able to graduate after all. Scary. Really scary.

Plus I have been busy. Hahaha. What else is new. I am organizing a family friend's friend's debut for the 19th. Kind of preparing for a To Heat You Up show for the 13th. Rehearsing for a thesis production on the 17th. Planning another trip to Zambales this coming week. Wondering when I should get another perm.

Hindi naman ako workaholic. OO! WORKAHOLIC AKO!!!! Sinong tanga ang magsho-show ng 1pm at 7pm sa RCBC habang baccalaureate mass niya rin sa araw na iyun ng 4pm sa Intramuros??? AKO! AKO! AKO ANG TANGANG YUN!!! Kinabukasan nga pala graduation ko ng 9am, assuming na ga-graduate nga ako.

Whew!!

As I was saying, it's so hard to be driven when you have no direction. Now that graduation is around the corner, I have been having this dilemma of what I want to do in life. And I'm not someone who will settle for an "okay lang" type of job. I do love theater. I may have gotten burned out after high school but this time, I definitely sure that I love what I am doing and how it entangles my life. Still, I want something that is related to my degree. I also want something that can feed my need to organize anything that's not my table. My friends must be tired of listening about this dilemma of mine that at some point they have memorized it.

Most of my classmates are probably preparing their resumes and are looking for potential employers. How about me? Do not expect me to be sending out a business resume this year.

This summer will be the end of many beginnings and the beginning of many ends. I am determined to find what I want and enjoy the adventure of unemployment. Rakets will be my main source of income and as much as possible I won't be asking cash from the parentals.

I really want to move out soon but this whole bum episode of my life will make it impossible. But I'm still looking for possible residences in case I'd be financially stable soon.

I am not sure with everything. But I'm sure I'll be okay.