goodbye lola

I never had the oppurtunity of meeting my parents' mothers. My father's mother died when he was in 4th grade. She was a high-diver, a beautiful and fashionable lady. My mother rarely talks about her mother. She left their home when my Mama was young leaving our lolo to take care of the family.

Everytime my parents would introduce someone as "lola", I would enjoy listening to their stories and receiving gifts from them regardless of its monetary value. I have some lolas back in the province who would kiss us lovingly but we would categorized it more of a long sniff.

My earliest memory of Lola Angging, who was my father's aunt, was back when I was kid and she gave me rosary that she made. She told me to include her in my prayers whenever I would pray the rosary. I was never an obedient Catholic girl. I rarely prayed the rosary. I do not go to Church every Sunday. The last time I confessed my sins to a priest was back in 6th grade. But whenever I would pray, I would always say "Bless everyone" so that nobody would get left behind.

The other night, Papa received a message that Lola Angging is dying. I didn't know how to react on that. But there were so many things that I wanted to ask her about our family, about the legacy of the Martinez of Pontevedra.

Before dinner Tita Jane texted Papa saying that Lola Angging passed away. All I said was 'Oh'. Wala na... I have absorbed everything and currently grieving about the late Milagros Martinez-Perez. Part of me feels guilty that I didn't pray enough for her, that I didn't take care of the rosary that she gave me.

I won't be able to say a proper goodbye for she will be buried in Bacolod. Because of school and financial constraints, I won't be able to see her loving face for one last time. Same reasons why I wasn't able to attend the burial of two Aunts two years ago. Hay...

Goodbye Lola.

My Dream for the LIttle Vain Girl

 
     Oyens is the baby of the family. She's my cousin who stays with us whenever her mom is busy. She looks like Dora the Explorer except cuter.

    She likes putting on lipstick. She has a default pout whenever she has lipstick on her lips. She enjoys staying in my room because there are lots of junk that she could tinker with.

    Whenever she is staying with us, I end up arriving late for my class because she asks so many "Ano 'to?" that I keep on answering just because.

    She will love rock music. She enjoys dancing to the beat of some random rock band that's on the radio. She will be vain. She loves being photographed but for now she knows when to stop.

    She will grow up with the sweetest laughter the world has ever known. She will be a funny person. At the age of two, she already knows how to joke around.

    She will have super-mega-hyper-moments-to-the-maximum-level where her parents will just give up on chasing her.

    She will break a many hearts. Dahil sabi ko.

    By the time she turns 18, I will be 36. I'll be there to listen to her rantings about how her mom could be unfair. I'll be there to tell her to listen to her mom because she just wants what is best for her.
   
    I'll be the Ate who will inspire her to take risks.
    Eh sa gusto kong mangarap. Libre naman, di ba? Oyens, you are the sweetest thing.

Pictures here there and everywhere

Pictures of friends.

Can you feel the heat tonight?

    Gone are the days of waking up wrapped by the cold morning breeze. Summer is here. Applying sunblock is a must. Sweaters and jackets are now stored at the bottom drawer.

    Tataas na naman ang babayarin sa kuryente dahil lahat ng electric fan ay naka number3. Pinagpapawisan na ako habang naka-upo sa harap ng computer. Oh the heat!

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    I have a new motto that I got from my sister that she got from her teacher:

STD ang kailangan!

Sipag! Tiyaga! Disiplina!

    Sabay-sabay nating isigaw STD!!!!

the sweetest thing

It makes me go "awww" . I don't know why.

I need a hug

    I wrote an entry in my mind while reviewing for my exam this morning. But alot of things have happened during the day.
       conversations
             revelations
                   chicken sa walls
                         questions temporarily answered by assumptions
                                  examinations
                                        naps

    I need hug. Eh sa ganun ang buhay...

Sizzling Food

When we are not tired nor broke, we go to this place in Intramuros where they serve meals on sizzling plates. Very affordable. Prices ranges from 30-75 pesos. San ka pa? kundi sa sizzlingan na!

Actually we don't know the real name of the establishment. hahaha.

Jod, miss ka ng sizzlingan.

My Last Trip to Agrabah

I did two more shows of Aladdin last 24 of January. Tapos na. No more. Goodbye orange dress.

UNLEASH Pictorial (copyright) of Tanghalang Batingaw -find me

http://switful.multiply.com/photos/album/22

bloody week

Two more nights and this bloody week will be over. I hate it when it happens. I hate it when its cold during the bloody week. Oh bloody hell!

Hay veces cuando he preferido caminar sola. Hay veces cuando he pensado estar sola. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

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Danie l Radcliffe has a happy trail. Oh happiness. It is a happy trail!

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I haven't finished uploading all the pictures that I want to post. Grr...