Hi I'm Isab. I am a workaholic

I have never had a single day where I had nothing to do since I came back from Holy Week vacation. I am seriously missing watching TV without thinking of the many things that I have to do.

If I'm not rehearsing, I'm assisting in theater classes.

No regrets though.

All is good.

All is mine.

All is awesome.

 

I'm lucky to be surrounded by people who enjoy kidnapping me whenever they can.

Mga sampung beses na ata ako nagkaroon ng unofficial graduation party.

Pero magkakaroon pa ng official graduation party. Sigurado yun. Kung kelan, ibang usapan na yun. Hahahaha.

 

Yun lang. Bow.

The Mandatory Post-Graduation Post

I woke up at 7am this morning after having 4 hours of sleep. When the alarm went off, the first thing I said was "Today, I will graduate".

I did graduate today. After five years of college plus a year of not attending school, I have finally received my diploma. And it was a struggle. My college years was never focused on my academics. I could not even remember having a normal sembreak.

Wait. I never had a sembreak.


My classmates have known me as someone whose always busy with something. But I never really told them that I was mostly busy with theater-related endeavors. Lv was the one who told everyone the real reason why I would be absent. I'm not sure why I sort of kept this a secret. But I felt the need to separate my academic life from my other life. I would invite close friends when I have shows but I never did announce in a class that I'm currently doing <insert title of show here>.

Every time I would tell a professor I would be absent, my automatic reason would be "I have work". I won't say I have a show unless he/she would ask what my work is.

Pa-sekret sekret pa talaga.


Now that college is over, another crazy chapter of my life will begin. I am still confused with what I want to do and all. So far, life has been awesome. So awesome.

I was not a brilliant student when you look at my grades. I'm not a cum laude nor an honorable mention. I was not scholar or a consistent Dean's Lister. I never really studied hard. But I know that I learned a lot. I also know that my grades will never dictate the course of my life. I am definitely sure I will survive this crazy life.

Amen.


By the way, Cesar Montano is my batchmate. Hahahaha.

It's so hard to be driven if you have no direction

I have been meaning to write a meaningful post about being a graduate with no concrete plans and all. But the thing is, I haven't graduated yet (march, get the diploma, pictures with the family, pig out right after). Exams are over, thesis has been passed. I'll get my grades on Tuesday. Clearance will be signed after Holy Week. I march two weeks from now.

I have been postponing on updating this thing because of this thought that I might have a failed subject or something and then I won't be able to graduate after all. Scary. Really scary.

Plus I have been busy. Hahaha. What else is new. I am organizing a family friend's friend's debut for the 19th. Kind of preparing for a To Heat You Up show for the 13th. Rehearsing for a thesis production on the 17th. Planning another trip to Zambales this coming week. Wondering when I should get another perm.

Hindi naman ako workaholic. OO! WORKAHOLIC AKO!!!! Sinong tanga ang magsho-show ng 1pm at 7pm sa RCBC habang baccalaureate mass niya rin sa araw na iyun ng 4pm sa Intramuros??? AKO! AKO! AKO ANG TANGANG YUN!!! Kinabukasan nga pala graduation ko ng 9am, assuming na ga-graduate nga ako.

Whew!!

As I was saying, it's so hard to be driven when you have no direction. Now that graduation is around the corner, I have been having this dilemma of what I want to do in life. And I'm not someone who will settle for an "okay lang" type of job. I do love theater. I may have gotten burned out after high school but this time, I definitely sure that I love what I am doing and how it entangles my life. Still, I want something that is related to my degree. I also want something that can feed my need to organize anything that's not my table. My friends must be tired of listening about this dilemma of mine that at some point they have memorized it.

Most of my classmates are probably preparing their resumes and are looking for potential employers. How about me? Do not expect me to be sending out a business resume this year.

This summer will be the end of many beginnings and the beginning of many ends. I am determined to find what I want and enjoy the adventure of unemployment. Rakets will be my main source of income and as much as possible I won't be asking cash from the parentals.

I really want to move out soon but this whole bum episode of my life will make it impossible. But I'm still looking for possible residences in case I'd be financially stable soon.

I am not sure with everything. But I'm sure I'll be okay.

Makiling Survey -- from Facebook

Ilang beses na akong na-tag para gawin ito. Gagawin ko na talagang totoo. Medyo boring akong studyante noon. Medyo lang. Hahaha. Mabait pa kasi ako nung first 2 and a half years as compared to others. Hindi kasi ako umiinom o nagyoyosi. At grabe ang konsensiya ko noon kapag nagshortcut lang ako. Pero noon yun... ngayon hindi na. >:)

GE at Arts
[x] Di gumawa ng homework more than 5 times
[ ] Napalabas ng teacher from class
[x] Kumain sa loob ng classroom
[x] Di pumasok sa class dahil ayaw mo lang
[ ] Inuna ang siesta sa hapon at nalate ng todo sa arts class dahil nkatulog ng mahaba
[x] Natulog sa class -- May shifting pa kami ni Joy-anne sa class ni Mam Arboleda para may notes pa kami.
[ ] Na-late more than 7 times -- Ms. Punctuality ako, never ako na late sa GE
[ ] Na-suspend dahil sa excessive tardiness
[x] Pinagtri-tripan ang morning excercise sa road
[x] Gumawa ng assignment sa loob ng classroom, habang nandyan ang teacher
[x] Gumawa ng plate/ nag-ensayo para sa arts habang GE time
[x] Kumain sa loob ng library
[x] Nag-ingay sa loob ng library
[x] Napagalitan ng librarian
[x] Nakipaglaro sa anak ni Mam Mojica ng espadahan sa library
[x] Nagpanggap na magreresearch sa library pag recess when gusto lang magpa aircon
[x] Pumasok ng naka-sandals o tsinelas
[x] Nag-jacket para kunwari naka-white shirt sa loob
[x] Nasermonan ng teacher ang buong klase
[x] Nag-walkout ang teacher sa class niyo -- Maliban sa nag walk out si Mam Bazar, si Sir Estepa isang beses pumasok lang sa classroom, nagsulat ng lesson sabay walk out
[ ] Bumaba sa school area nang maaga para makapag-basketball/volleyb

all
[x] May bagyo, at nagdasal na sana may masirang puno sa road para humarang sa rosa
[x] Pumasok sa class ng di prepared (plate, scene study, etc.)
[x] Na-late sa Arts
[x] Napagalitan nang matindi ng teacher
[x] Sumugod ang buong batch para humingi ng sorry sa isang teacher.
[x] Bumibili ng pagkain sa admin area
[x] Naglakad mula school area, NAC Theater, Vargas Area pabalik ng dorm
[x] Nagvolunteer na itaas at/o ibaba ang watawat sa flag ceremony, flag retreat
[x] Hindi ka (as in kayong class/batch) pinapapasok ng isang teacher hanggang sa sabihin niya na "enter the dragon!"
[x] Ginamit na rason ng pagkakaroon ng thesis/recital para bigyan ng mas magaan na load, assignments, et al sa GE -- Kaya ang batch namin hindi nagcheerdance. Kami lang yun. Hahahaha.
[ ] Kunwari tutugtog ng national anthem, PHSA hymn at exercise theme para hindi matikman ang sinag ng araw
[x] kinakabahan sa chemistry class at sa index cards -- ng bonggang bongga
[x] gumawa ng short film/s para sa project sa GE subject
[x] namemorize ang ions at anions sa anumang paraan (kanta, tula at kung anu-anung codes)
[x] Nag- impromptu ng class presentation dahil di talaga nag prepare at all or sobra sobra ginagawa

SA PANGKALAHATAN
[x] Umakyat ng bubong
[x]Umakyat at nakabutas ang bubong
[ ] Nakipag-suntukan
[x] Nakipag-sigawan sa kaklase o roommate o kapwa
[ ] Kumuha ng pagkain/inumin sa ref nang di nagpapaalam sa may-ari
[x ]Nagkaroon ng inis with other batch
[x] Tumakas sa student's assembly at nanatili sa dorm
[x] Nasabihan ng house parent ng "ILAW NIYO!"
[x] Nanakot ng freshman (as in "multo" takot) -- Naman! Si Mara at si Angel. Siyempre yung mga first years namin.
[ ] Nagkaroon ng boyfriend/girlfriend na batchmate
[ ] Nagkaroon ng boyfriend/girlfriend (higher o lower batch) -- wala noong studyante pa ako. Bwahahaha,
[x] Nag-shortcut papuntang kabilang cottage
[x] Nag-shortcut papuntang kabilang dorm
[x] Nag-swimming sa pool na di alam ng houseparent
[ ] Lumabas sa PHSA na patakas
[ ] Naiwan ng Rosa/Big Bus dahil nasa computer shop pa -- Ms. Punctuality talaga ako. As in paranoid akong maiwan ng Rosa.
[x] Pumila ng dalawang beses o higit pa sa pagkain
[x] Nakitulog sa kwarto ng iba
[ ] Na-ban sa Dorm
[x] Pumunta sa ibang dorm na di naglo-login sa blue book
[x] Nanuod ng recital pero natulog lang o kaya nakipagchikahan lang --Kinabukasan sinabihan ako ni Botin "Isab, sinong kausap mo sa likod?"
[x] Umapaw ang utang sa cafeteria (dahil sa sandwich, milo, etc) -- Yung egg sandwich na yan pahamak!
[ ] Pumasok/Lumabas sa Rosa o Big Bus sa pamamagitan ng paglusot sa bintana
[x] Nag-vandalize sa upuan
[ ] Napagalitan ng teachers dahil sa sobrang vandalism
[ ] Nag-kiskis at naglinis ng upuan na vinandalize ng class.
[ ] Nahulihan ng alak sa dorm
[ ] Nahuli ng teacher/ houseparent na nagyo-yosi
[ ] Nanood ng movie gamit ng laptop at nagkaroon pa ng food trip pagkatapos nito
[ ] Nakipaglaplapan sa music area
[ ] Inisip na bipolar si kuya kiko
[x] Nagustuhan ang mga higanteng uod sa kalsada -- Amazing kasi sa laki!
[x] saksi sa mga uod sa daan tuwing umuulan
[ ] Under the influence of keme kapag may party
[ ] Nakapunta sa dampalit ng illegal
[x] Hinarana ka (ung raket ng mga music majors tuwing valentine's season) -- Hahahaha. May isa pang beses na may card and flowers na pinauwi ko sa nanay ko.
[ ] Naging SC member -- Muntikan lang. Pero naging Dorm Mayor ako.
[x] Pumunta ng Dampalit
[x] naglinis ng aquarium para sa mga isda ng biology class
[x] sumasalo ng falling leaf -- Sabay wish! Pakana ni Jk
[ ] nakakita ng mga milagrong ginagawa ng room mate kapag break o gabi
[ ] Nakapagswimming sa pool kahit may mga algae algae na ito
[ ] Nagkaroon ng lesbian/gay moments
[ ] Nanghuli ng cicada/antlion kapag break
[x] Nagnakaw ng hanger sa sampayan - Dahil lagi din akong nanakawan kahit ang laki ng pangalan ko sa pink na hanger
[ ] Nakasira ng kahit isa man dito na matatagpuan sa classroom gaya ng piano, lcd proj, lcd screen tv, vhs
[x]Nagkaroon ng matinding punishment from a teacher
[ ] Nakipag-inuman/ yosi ng lihim with classmates/ka-majors
[x] Nadedepress kapag paakyat o pababa na ng makiling

If I won't be able to have babies in the future,

I'm blaming the smart-ass who decided to have the whole compound defogged today.

Seriously!!!!

I woke-up this morning feeling great and all because I slept early last night. I was already in bed by 10pm and was in dreamland by 10:30. Now that's a miracle for me because I usually sleep at around 3am.

I went downstairs for breakfast and suddenly someone screams "Tiyay, magpapausok daw." A few seconds later, a fogging machine makes a noise and the whole back area of the house was covered with poison fog. I run upstairs to close all the windows then headed to the kitchen to close the remaining windows.

My mother was panicking because of all the clothes that were hanged outside to dry which I think should be washed all over again because they now smell like mosquito repellant.

Ang galing talaga ng kung sino mang bobo ang nag-isip na magpausok ngayon. Buti na lang gising na ako kung hindi naliligo pa siguro ako sa usok. Punyeta!

I'm also blaming that smart-ass if my lungs collapse or something.

And this is where I try to write something sensible...

who am I kidding. I am suppose to be finishing a paper or at least edit THE thesis. But noooooo! Here I am typing and typing hoping that some brilliant idea would spill out and make my fingers type.

I still feel tired but not as tired as the last time I said I was tired. I am extremely happy that I have survived February. It was not as great as I wanted it to be but seriously, what else would I ask for. I survived a month of juggling rehearsals for Heat You Up, directing a play for school, reviewing for the midterms and hosting the Diplomatic Dinner.

I was telling Jk that if I do survive February, I would be able to graduate. Hahahaha. I do not know why I keep on making these conditions when I would always say to myself that these things are only giving me false hope. Pero care ko! Ang labo.

Despite all the stress, I have to admit that I really had fun. And even though I almost crashed and burned, I am really lucky to be surrounded by people who keep my spirirts up.

I have decided to stop the hate that I have been feeling for awhile. Why should I sulk on this negative feeling when I have been given lots of happiness. Parang sinasabihan ako na "Hoy gaga! Wag ka na nga magbitter-bitteran diyan!". At hindi na, tinigilan ko na dahil marami namang binibigay sa aking kaligayahan.

Kung kaya't maliligo na lang ako sa kaligayahan.

Despite all the uncertainty about my future, I cannot wait for this chapter of my life to end. I cannot wait the continuation of the many beginnings that this year has unravelled for me.

I have been thinking of a catchy title for the past 20 minutes...

but my brain is half-dead. I cannot think of a witty catchphrase or even a funny CORNY joke. My stomach has been revolting for the whole week giving me false alarms with farts and burps.

I cannot remember the last time I have been this tired and I still have five days to end this week.

Actually, there have been lots of things, ideas and random chuwariwaps that I wanted to write. But I have been postponing it because I didn't want an entry upstaging my previous entry. Now, that all those stuff are gone and here I am ranting how tired I am. Thus, I upstage my previous entry.

I am tired. That's it. My mother is just waiting for me to collapse and take me to the doctor. I have been overdosing myself with ascorbic acid to prevent flu and the likes. I cannot remember the last time that I lied down on my bed not to sleep but to think of nothing, except the ceiling. I cannot think of a witty/funny/corny response to blog entries that I have read.

I have snapped on my friends, a lot. And I really feel bad about.

I snapped on Lv the other day for something that's done and can't be undone. I still feel guilty about it. I am thankful that she just let it slipped, asked me if I'm okay and asked me to join her in the library. I still feel bad that I left her right after we sat down.


Matapos lang talaga ang linggong ito at magdidiwang ako ng bonggang bongga.