If I won't be able to have babies in the future,

I'm blaming the smart-ass who decided to have the whole compound defogged today.

Seriously!!!!

I woke-up this morning feeling great and all because I slept early last night. I was already in bed by 10pm and was in dreamland by 10:30. Now that's a miracle for me because I usually sleep at around 3am.

I went downstairs for breakfast and suddenly someone screams "Tiyay, magpapausok daw." A few seconds later, a fogging machine makes a noise and the whole back area of the house was covered with poison fog. I run upstairs to close all the windows then headed to the kitchen to close the remaining windows.

My mother was panicking because of all the clothes that were hanged outside to dry which I think should be washed all over again because they now smell like mosquito repellant.

Ang galing talaga ng kung sino mang bobo ang nag-isip na magpausok ngayon. Buti na lang gising na ako kung hindi naliligo pa siguro ako sa usok. Punyeta!

I'm also blaming that smart-ass if my lungs collapse or something.

And this is where I try to write something sensible...

who am I kidding. I am suppose to be finishing a paper or at least edit THE thesis. But noooooo! Here I am typing and typing hoping that some brilliant idea would spill out and make my fingers type.

I still feel tired but not as tired as the last time I said I was tired. I am extremely happy that I have survived February. It was not as great as I wanted it to be but seriously, what else would I ask for. I survived a month of juggling rehearsals for Heat You Up, directing a play for school, reviewing for the midterms and hosting the Diplomatic Dinner.

I was telling Jk that if I do survive February, I would be able to graduate. Hahahaha. I do not know why I keep on making these conditions when I would always say to myself that these things are only giving me false hope. Pero care ko! Ang labo.

Despite all the stress, I have to admit that I really had fun. And even though I almost crashed and burned, I am really lucky to be surrounded by people who keep my spirirts up.

I have decided to stop the hate that I have been feeling for awhile. Why should I sulk on this negative feeling when I have been given lots of happiness. Parang sinasabihan ako na "Hoy gaga! Wag ka na nga magbitter-bitteran diyan!". At hindi na, tinigilan ko na dahil marami namang binibigay sa aking kaligayahan.

Kung kaya't maliligo na lang ako sa kaligayahan.

Despite all the uncertainty about my future, I cannot wait for this chapter of my life to end. I cannot wait the continuation of the many beginnings that this year has unravelled for me.

I have been thinking of a catchy title for the past 20 minutes...

but my brain is half-dead. I cannot think of a witty catchphrase or even a funny CORNY joke. My stomach has been revolting for the whole week giving me false alarms with farts and burps.

I cannot remember the last time I have been this tired and I still have five days to end this week.

Actually, there have been lots of things, ideas and random chuwariwaps that I wanted to write. But I have been postponing it because I didn't want an entry upstaging my previous entry. Now, that all those stuff are gone and here I am ranting how tired I am. Thus, I upstage my previous entry.

I am tired. That's it. My mother is just waiting for me to collapse and take me to the doctor. I have been overdosing myself with ascorbic acid to prevent flu and the likes. I cannot remember the last time that I lied down on my bed not to sleep but to think of nothing, except the ceiling. I cannot think of a witty/funny/corny response to blog entries that I have read.

I have snapped on my friends, a lot. And I really feel bad about.

I snapped on Lv the other day for something that's done and can't be undone. I still feel guilty about it. I am thankful that she just let it slipped, asked me if I'm okay and asked me to join her in the library. I still feel bad that I left her right after we sat down.


Matapos lang talaga ang linggong ito at magdidiwang ako ng bonggang bongga.

Please watch!!!! BENT to HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN

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1st Offering for its 2009 Season


LIHIS
Emmanuel Canteras' Filipino translation of Martin Sherman's BENT

and

TO HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN
by David Finnigan


featuring the Alumni of Dulaang Sipat Lawin
of the Philippine High School for the Arts (PHSA)

Acey Aguilar, JK Anicoche, Nar Cabico, Abner Delina
Santi Obcena, Lovely Balili, Sheenly Vee Gener, Isabelle Martinez, Meila Romero, Ness Roque, Nina Rumbines, Alison Segarra, Kristine Balmes, and Sofia CP Gonzales

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Synopses:

BENT/ LIHIS

It is 1934 in Berlin. in accordance with Hitler's nationwide campaign to eliminate all homosexuals, Maximillian Berger and Rudolf Hennings are sent to a concentration camp. along the way, Rudy is brutally killed.

Max encounters Horst, a fellow homosexual, in a prisoner train. they fall in love but are forced to resort to extreme measures to ensure their own
survival as the Nazi's attempt to drive them insane.


TO HEAT YOU UP AND COOL YOU DOWN

Two women working in a bar and their thoughts coming to life: Memory, Lust, Adaptability, Imagination/ Desire and Planning/ Habit mechanism.

What do we really think about when a new relationship comes along?

While one struggles between letting go or falling in love again and going through the same cycle of pain, the other one contemplates on giving love a chance even if it means that the relationship is with the same sex.

All just to heat you up and cool you down.



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The Best Ever!!!!

I have a rule to not write here when drunk or feeling an intense emotion. Pero ayokong palagpasin ang pagkakataong ito habang lutang pa ako sa kaligayahan.

This is the best birthday ever! And it's not yet over!

For the past few years, I would always be afraid that something would go wrong during my birthday. But today, I feel so happy. Kahit medyo hilo-hilo na ako sa kalasingan, alam kong masaya ako ng sobra. Dahil alam kong ang araw na ito ay magiging espesyal kahit hindi ko pa alam kung anong nakalaan sa mga susunod na oras.

Sa araw na ito, sinalubong ko, kasama ng mga pinakamalalapit kong kaibigan ang aking kaarawan. Alam kong alanganin na nagyaya ako ng weekday, pero na isip ko na minsan lang ako maging 22 sa araw ng 22.

Ang saya! Sobra! Ngayon lang ako naiyak sa birthday ko. Naiyak na ako dati pero iyak ng lungkot iyun. Ngayon, naiyak ako sa saya. Kumusta naman ang kantahan ka ng "happy birthday" ng mga tao sa Penguin. Kumusta naman na ang mga kanta ay inalay sayo ng mga taong hindi ko kilala. Kumusta naman ang mga pagkanta ng pinakamamalapit na kaibigang songers dahil birthday mo.

I am super happy! Naluluha pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Hahahahaha.

Naalala ko yung nabasa ko sa magazine, yung sinabi si Zsazsa kay Karylle noong kakabreak lang nila ni Dingdong. "Think of the constants in your life." At tama siya, yoon ang pinakamahalaga. Ang mga taong hindi ka iiwan kahit anong mangyari. Ang mga taong mamahalin ka habang buhay pumayat ka man o tumaba, magakaroon ka ng disapproving na jowa o jowang mamahalin ng mga taong namamahal sayo. Ang taong sasamahan ka kahit gaano kasama na ng ginawa mo dahil nagpaka-pokpok ka na at lahat.

Salamat sa lahat ng mga nagmamahal. Aaminin ko noong mag-18 ako, ginusto ko rin ng mga kakornihan gaya ng pagsasayaw kasama ang tatay at ng mga malalapit na kaibigan. My 18th birthday celebration eventually became disastrous. But this night is totally making up for it.

Nakasayaw ko ang tatay ko at ang mga malalapit na kaibigan. At higit sa lahat ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagmamahal na pumapalibot sa akin. And to think I was planning not to celebrate this year. No regrets!

This year, I will take more risks. I will travel more just as I have always dream of. I will have my own pendong peace. I will love. I will hate. I will be angry. I will be sad. I will get everything I deserve. I don't even know what I deserve.

This will be my year.

For the annual current events-related wish: I wish for World peace, economic stabilty, sustainable development, abolishment of poverty and for the UN to accomplish its Milennium Goals.

Oh di ba, nakakadugo ang aking wishes.

Good times. Good company. Good year.

Kasalang Catamora at Boivin-Sicart

Matagal ko nang gustong sumulat kung gaano kasaya ang kasal nina Anna at Jeremy. Gusto ko sanang isulat ang lahat ng kaganapan, bawat oras kung kakayanin. Pero sa sobrang saya, hindi ko alam kung saan sisimulan.

Pero heto, susubukan ko na.

Sa pagpaplano ng kasal na iyun, masasabi naming kinarir namin ng bongga ang "production" na iyun. Hahaha. Halos gabi-gabi kaming nag-uusap ni Jk ng mga kailangan gawin para sa kasal na iyun. At aaminin ko, nuong pumasok ang 2009, hindi ko inisip ang birthday ko. Ang una kong inisip ay ikakasal na ang kaibigan namin.

Nakakawindang. Hahaha. Hindi man ako yumaman sa pagbuhos ng effort, alam ko naman na lubos naming napaligaya sina Jeremy at Anna. At higit sa lahat, lahat kami nag-enjoy kahit na maraming technical difficulties na nangyari.


Maraming drama ang sumapit sa aming magkakaibigan sa kalagitnaan ng pagpaplano. Sa totoo lang, isang bonggang drama lang. Yung iba, mga nakaraang bubog na pasulpot-sulpot para lang mang-asar at guluhin ang aming mga utak. Kaya itong pagpaplano ay parang naging therapy na rin sa mga sawi at feeling sawi.

Work can sometimes help you move on. Nagagawang isantabi ang mga damdamin para matapos ang trabaho at makamit ang mithiin.

Charot! Ang dadrama na naman nito.

At the end of the day, fabulosa pa rin.


Masayang masaya ang gabing iyun. Hindi sapat ang mga salita kung gaano ako kasaya. Iyun ay isang gabi na punong-puno ng pagmamahal at kaligayahan.

Para kay Anna,
Roommate! Unang roommate ko sa Makiling. Grabe, isang ganap na ginang ka na!!!

Para kay Jeremy,
Alagaan mo ng sobra si Anna. Baka ipatawag namin si Bruno. Hehehe.


Magtagal kayo habambuhay. Mahal ko kayo.

Bulaga and True Blood

Ang buhay nga naman, sa isang pitik lang bigla na lang may nagbabago. Yung mga akala mong walang nararamdaman ay biglang nagiging tao.

Nakakagulat lang ang mga bagay-bagay. Pero kailangan nating magpatuloy.

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I have been watching True Blood with Manong. It is really awesome. It's a vampire series by HBO. It is nothing like Twilight. It beats Edwards Cullen's glittered body.

It stars Anna Paquin and Stephen Moyer.

WARNING: Anna Paquin is oozing with hotness. And yeah, lots of sex scenes in EVERY episode.