Dear Mother Earth, I am very sorry.

A piece of candy wrapper that I didn't dispose properly surely contributed to the mess that we now know as a national calamity. I am sorry.


I have been reading updates about the aftermath for more than an hour. Ngayon lang pumasok sa kokote ko kung gaano katindi ang nangyari. Ngayong may mga kakilala akong nasalanta mismo ng bagyo at baha.

Tama na sa negative vibes. Kung lahat ng negative vibes sa Pilipinas ay maging positive, isipin niyo na lang kung gaano kasaya at ganado ang lahat ng tao sa pagtulong.


The Bare Necessities Drive

Peter Paul & Mary - Puff the Magic Dragon

I don't like wearing pants and Puff the Magic Dragon

I haven't worn a pair of pants for weeks already. I'd rather wear shorts or dresses or skirts. I like the cool feeling around my legs when they're all exposed. I don't care if I have marks on my legs.

Besides, I'm afraid I might not fit in my tight pants. Arrr. Hahaha.

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Mama told me the other day that Mary of Peter, Paul and Mary is dead. Their music completes my childhood memories along with listening to Shirley Bassey while in the car with my father and hearing Eraserheads for the first time in our stereo.

One of my favorite songs by that group is Puff the Magic Dragon.

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Little Jackie Paper loved that rascal puff,
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff. oh

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.

Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on puffs gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow wheneer they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flag when puff roared out his name. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, Jackie Paper came no more
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar.

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave,
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah lee.


I was a loner as a kid. I played a lot on my own, having my own stories, aliases and the works. I would dress up complete with shoes and accessories. I'd make intricate stories about my character of the moment. She'd have a lover, a great career and a beautiful handwriting. She would solve mysteries, ride bike to work and have complicated family stories.

I miss that part of my life.

Trial and Error

Life has been like a long experiment. I try something and if it doesn't suit me, I make a mental note that that does not work and move on to the next adventure. This year has been full of surprises and I'm sure 2009 will have more for me.

I've tried a lot this year. I'll make a list once the year ends.


My life is starting to have structure. Aside from knowing what I don't want to do, I now know what I want to do. It's something that I have been rambling for the past two years. I'm taking little steps to get what I want. I'm trying to sort out my priorities especially with my moohlah. Although sometimes, I can't help splurging on myself like SHOES! and FOOD!

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I was heading home from the rehearsal of Anna's opera, I'm her Production Manager, then on my way out of College of Music, there was fog everywhere. At first I thought my eyes have gone really bad, but the students at the entrance were talking about it and that's when I realized that there really was fog.

I didn't mind the cold while waiting for a jeep in my shorts and thin jacket get-up. Good thing I brought my scarf, I just don't want to lose my voice with the four shows this weekend. The jeepney ride wasn't eventful but somehow I felt giddy. Christmas season. I haven't been this excited about Christmas for a long time. It's not December yet but I am really excited to see christmas lights and wearing sweaters to fight the cold.

I am in a good place right now. I like where the universe has put me. I'm excited for the surprises it has for me for the rest of the year. I like this feeling, I don't feel lonely or useless.

Thank you '09. All's mine, indeed.

Someday I Will Have Concrete Plan

In the meantime, I shall ride ferry boats on Pasig River, walk on the walls of Intramuros, dance like there's no tomorrow in Penguin, talk of lavish plans with my friends, be a North-South resident (QC-Pasay!), perform for hundreds of people and cherish this chapter of my life.

And this is how I roll in awesomeness.

Mystery Kid... He Might Be My Stalker

After the show, we go out again for photo ops, me in my full alien regalla complete with sweating colored face.  Suddenly, there's this kid, probably around 8 or 9 years old, who comes up to me and says " Hi! I missed you!" And then he gives me a quick hug.

Who is this kid? I HAVE NO IDEA!

I look at him confused, and here he was staring at me like he really knows me. I ask "Who are you?"

"I'm fine. I missed you. Bye!" he answers.

Then a lady called him "Timmy". He goes to his mom then goes to Ren and asks him about something. I ask Ren if knows the kid, he said no. I tried to remember if he was my student last summer. But no!

So yeah. Who the hell was that???

I've Learned

I've Learned - By Omer B. Washington

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you'll see them.

I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned.


Thanks Alyx for sharing this.