Sunday, August 30, 2009

Someday I Will Have Concrete Plan

In the meantime, I shall ride ferry boats on Pasig River, walk on the walls of Intramuros, dance like there's no tomorrow in Penguin, talk of lavish plans with my friends, be a North-South resident (QC-Pasay!), perform for hundreds of people and cherish this chapter of my life.

And this is how I roll in awesomeness.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Mystery Kid... He Might Be My Stalker

After the show, we go out again for photo ops, me in my full alien regalla complete with sweating colored face.  Suddenly, there's this kid, probably around 8 or 9 years old, who comes up to me and says " Hi! I missed you!" And then he gives me a quick hug.

Who is this kid? I HAVE NO IDEA!

I look at him confused, and here he was staring at me like he really knows me. I ask "Who are you?"

"I'm fine. I missed you. Bye!" he answers.

Then a lady called him "Timmy". He goes to his mom then goes to Ren and asks him about something. I ask Ren if knows the kid, he said no. I tried to remember if he was my student last summer. But no!

So yeah. Who the hell was that???

Saturday, August 8, 2009

I've Learned

I've Learned - By Omer B. Washington

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.

I've learned that no matter how thin you slide it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned that you should always have loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you'll see them.

I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.

I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned.


Thanks Alyx for sharing this.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Next

Despite all stress and the technical disasters, the time traveling hosting was a success.

But the 3am Dimsum moments with Jk, Santi and Sarah was my favorite, except for the part where they forgot to give me the instructions on when to turn going to Tomas Morato. It took us more than half an hour to get to Morato from Greenhills.

And now off to the next adventure.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Too Many Things in My Mind

I guess I was overwhelmed with the adrenaline rush that I have forgotten that there are a lot of things that I need to deal with. I do not know how I'd be able to survive this wave chaos in my mind. But I know I will.

I started dispersing these thoughts that are disturbing me by talking to different friends on different issues. It's like assigning my problems to my friends.

I guess I should have dealt with these early on. I kept saying to myself that it's not yet the right time, I still don't have the answer. But now, they're slowly morphing into monsters that haunt me even in my happiest moments. I cannot focus. I cannot concentrate. They feed on my endorphins.

I know I'd be able to conquer them and crush them like they never existed.

Life can be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

Friday, July 17, 2009

May nagtanong sa akin kung hindi ba ako maghahanap ng totoong trabaho

Ang sabi ko "Hindi ba ito totoong trabaho? Pumapasok ako at binabayaran. Alam kong totoo ang lahat ng ginagawa ko."

Nang ikwento ko ito kay Jk, sabi niya "Oo nga naman, totoong trabaho ang ginagawa natin."

I may not have a regular job nor receive a 13th month pay at the end of the year, but I have accepted that I am not unemployed. I refuse to call myself a bum, I have been very productive.

Freelancer ako. Amen.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Kamalas-malasan nga naman, oo.

I was sick (again) this week and I was stuck home. It was okay to watch TV. But after awhile I got tired of it. Cable channels have repeating the Michael Jackson Memorial. I already memorized what Paris said at the end of the tribute.

How about internet, you ask. NO INTERNET! NO LANDLINE! PLDT had fiber optic chorva problems that need major repairs. The whole Libertad had no internet since Monday. I couldn't get any work done even as simple as sending emails. I'm currently abusing the Krispy Kreme internet. May donut ka na, may internet ka pa!

The cats played with my meds. I left it on the dining table last night and then my brother saw it on the floor around 3am. When I went down for breakfast, four capsules were missing and the rest had scratches on it, one was half open. We're afraid that they might have swallowed it or something.

Three weeks ago, a guy was jacking off in the jeep that I was riding. And he was sitting right in front of me. The driver didn't notice but I sure did. It was horrible and disgusting and creepy. Ask me personally about this story, I'll give you the horrible details.

Some friends weren't able to watch my closing show in Labfest, they weren't able to get tickets. Ang nakakainis lang, ang dami pang bakante sa loob ng theater. Hay.


Oh well. I don't want to end this on a negative note. A lot of good things have happened. The Labfest cast party was soooo fun! Tapos nakalibre pa ako ng mango juice! Horay!

I finally saw Santi! Horay!

I'm recovering now. A few more rounds of anti-biotics and I'll be good. I can't get sick anymore. I have already filled my sickness qouta for this year. Plus I can't afford it. Hahaha.

Ayun lang. Yung ibang bagay sa buhay ko, masaya naman. Nakakalito lang paminsan-minsan.

Kaya dapat galingan!